Here I Am Again

Here I am again contemplating what it is I want out of life. I feel like there has to be more that life has to offer. I am unemployed and I stay at home with an allowance. I am used to having a paycheck and it is about to drive me crazy not having any money. I have a Down Syndrome daughter and it is very difficult finding someone who will watch her. i received a comment a while back from someone who was very nasty about handicapped children. It made me angry so I didn't post it. If you've never been around handicapped children you just don't know the unconditional love they give you.
Well enough about that
I hope everyone is having a good life. You know when I was younger I never even thought about the future and what I wanted to do. Now I find that I would love to travel and see different countries. I do not regret my life because I have four wonderful children, two grandsons and another one on the way.  I guess I am bored with nothing to do. Maybe I am feeling sorry for myself. I just feel like something is missing. Oh well maybe I will figure it out and then I can do something about.
I was separated a while back and I enjoyed being independant, come and go as I please, not to have to listen to anyone griping. Maybe I just miss that who knows.
I am going to go for now and I will talk to you later.
Ladyhawkcj