Sunday, December 7, 2008

Christmas Is Coming


Christmas is the time that my family all get together and celebrate. We usually do it on Christmas Eve but as I have to work that night we are going to do it Christmas night instead. We have not exchanged gifts in a couple of years because we are to many and can not afford it. One day we might start back. So we just get together for a party and spend time together. So far the only gift I have gotten is just one. Christmas is my favorite holiday because I love looking at the decorations and the spirit of the holiday. I know that some people spend way too much on gifts for their children which I think is crazy. I buy my children one big gift ( not necessarily monetary ) and several to put under the tree and they are just as happy with that as if I had spent a million bucks. It should not be about the money you spend on a gift but the feelings of love, excitment and caring in considering the gift that should matter. After all Christmas is about love and celebrating the birth of Jesus or at least it should be.

There might be some people who disagree with me but that is their right.
What is your thoughts on this subject? Do you think that people have lost the meaning of what Christmas is really all about?

Just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Where Did My Pagerank Go?

I went to check on my page and guess what my pagerank has disappeared. It used to be a 4 and now it is a ? What happened I wonder? Did I get slapped by Google or did I forget to do something I was supposed to..? Oh well such is the life of cyberspace. I know I have not been posting but I don't have internet at home right now and it is such a bummer. Be patient with me and I will get things back like it should be. This insurance business is hard. People just don't have the extra money for life insurance and it is a shame because if something happened now how will they pay for things that are needed then. I am going back to nursing at least it is a sure paycheck. Christmas is coming and you know how much money that involves. I hope everyone has a good Halloween to. I am taking my kids trick or treating Friday night and Saturday night we are going to a party. It is a costume party and I am going as a Devil woman horns included.

Going to go for now have a safe Halloween.
Ladyhawkcj

Sunday, September 28, 2008

When Things Go Bad

I got to see my grandson Zachary today for a few minutes. She still won't let my son see him. They are not divorced but when my son tries to see Zach she prevents it and the law won't help. The only thing to do is to go ahead and get his divorce and sue for custody. If anyone knows what we have to do that will insure that he gets custody. I would appreciate any info. He can't afford a contested divorce which is very costly. He did get to see him for a minute and Zach knows that his daddy is trying to get him.

Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Prayers Do Get Answered

I just wanted to let the ones that prayed for me to pass my state test. Thank You because I passed my test. Monique thank you because I know that you did. I know that my posting has been short here lately but I have been busy. I know that you all have heard about Gustave and now we have Ike out there. I personally will be glad to be done with all these hurricanes. At least it wasn't a bad one. Well everyone take care and I will be back in touch.

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Keeping In Touch

Just dropping a few lines to say hello. Ive taken my classes and now I am waiting to take my state test on the 26th. I could use your prayers that I pass. I really enjoy doing the insurance business. I have never before thought about doing this before but I am glad that I got into it. Going to go now. I have to do some studying.

Ladyhawkcj

Friday, August 1, 2008

I have been awarded the Kick Ass Award from Mammadawg. Thank you I appreciate it.
Do you know any bloggers that Kick Ass?
Maybe they've got incredible, original content. Or they're overflowing with creativity. Is it someone that helps you become a better blogger? Or a bloggy friend you know you can count on? Or maybe it's someone who simply inspires you to be a better person... or someone else who sends you to the floor, laughing your ass off.Whatever the reason may be, I'm sure you know at least a couple of bloggers that kick ass. Well... why not tell 'em so?LOVE ON 'EM
Choose 5 bloggers that you feel are "Kick Ass Bloggers"
Let 'em know in your post or via email, twitter or blog comments that they've received an award
Share the love and link back to both the person who awarded you and back to www.mammadawg.com
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Ladyhawkcj

Monday, July 28, 2008

When It Rains It Pours

I know that everyone has heard the expression " when it rains it pours" well that is what it feels like what is going on with me. I got me a new job and really like it. The problem is that my baby sitter quit on me. They are really understanding for which I am thankful for. We are supposed to have our 3 day class and take our state test the week of the 13th. I am excited about it but a little apprehensive too. I am praying that I will pass the test so that I can get my permanent license. You know it is hard to find reliable child care these days especially if you have no family around. School starts back on the 7th and then I can get back to work. I just wanted to write a note to let you know I am still around. My internet provider ceased their unlimited internet so I am going to have to do something different but I don't know what yet.
Going to go for now. Buffy congratulations on being a grandmother.

Ladyhawkcj

Thursday, July 10, 2008

A Career Change

Sorry about not writing sooner but I have started a new career change job. I have had training all this week and by the time I get home I am exhausted. I am starting my new career as an Insurance Salesperson. I have learned a lot about insurance that I didn't know about before. I have to go in the morning and get my Id number and in four weeks I am going to have to take a three day class and take my state test to get my permanent license. I have been trying to keep up with my drops so if I miss you I am sorry.

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Shopping I Love It

Yesterday I went to the Mall and spent hours there. You know I just had to go to Bath and Body Works and Victoria's Secret. They had sales going on and I can't resist them. I wound up getting me some of that Wild Honeysuckle Body Splash. They had a booth setup with all kinds of perfumes and you know you just have to experiment. I found one that I just absolutely loved and guess what the name was? Sex In The City. That stuff just smelled so good mmm. It cost 65.00 a bottle so I had to forego getting it then but I do plan on going back and getting me some. My daughter Shannon was doing some sampling of her own. She was smelling all the different scents from perfumes, lotions, body sprays and even tried on some lip gloss. She loved it, typical girl. The bad thing is that she is allergic to perfumes but she took her allergy medicine that morning and it didn't affect her like I thought it would. School is going to be starting before you know it and I've already started clothes shopping. With two girls to shop for that is alot of shopping. I think when school starts back up I am going back to the mall and look to my hearts content without children getting tired on me.
Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I'm A Grandma Again

I just wanted to let you know that I have a new grandson. He was born yesterday at 6:07 pm and weighed 8 lbs. and 5 oz.. He looks just like his daddy which is my son. They went yesterday to the hospital to induce labor and started that at 11 am. I went prepared to take tons of pictures and would you know it my darn camera battery died on me. I was lucky enough that my other son's girlfriend brought her camera and took photos and as soon as I get them downloaded into my computer I will put one up.
I tell you I have not seen so many people around for a birth of a baby as there was yesterday. My son is 18 and his girlfriend is 16 -- the ones that had the baby.

When he first told me he was going to be a daddy I thought he was picking on me because he always does. Then I realized that he wasn't and I could think of was no you're too young but I soon got excited about being grandma again.
I picked him up his first Fathers Day Gift which was a blue frame that said Little Prince on it and I told him I was going to take a picture of him and Collin and put it in the frame and that was his gift.
I am going to get a double frame and put a picture of my son when he was born on one side and the baby on the other side. His name is Collin Jake. My son said that they were going to call him Jake. I know that am ramblng but all these thoughts and feelings come and there are no order for them. This is short but I just wanted to let you know what was going on with me.

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Children Spanking and Crying

I decided to write this because I have been seeing something for awhile and wanted to say something. There are some people who believe in spanking a child and there are some that don't. I personally try not to but I will if it is warranted.
But what I wanted to talk about is spanking and crying.

I was at the park the other day eating a snowball with my daughter and my son's girlfriend and this couple at the table beside us had a couple of small children.
Anyway the father spanked the child who in turn starts crying. The father then proceeds to tell the child to quit crying.
Now in my opinion if someone pops me and it hurts I am going to want to cry also. Why is it that parents wants to spank their children and then turn around and tell them to be quiet. If you don't want to hear them cry-- then don't spank them.
I have never spanked my child in public. That is embarassing for the child. I wait until I get home if I have to do anything like that.
What do you think?
Ladyhawkcj

Friday, June 6, 2008

The Drive- In Goof

I was reading Margie & Edna's post about drive- in's and it reminded of the last time I went to a drive in.
I went on a date to the drive in to see a movie - I don't remember what movie
You know how you have to get out of the car to go to refreshment building to get your popcorn and coke.
Anywho I went to go and get my stuff and I thought I remembered where we were parked at. I got my stuff and headed back to the car and opened the door to get in and guess what? It was not the right car. It happened to be a single guy and he thought it was funny and I was kind of embarassed but you know I apologized and shut the door wondering where are we parked at .

It happened that my date saw me and flashed his lights and I was able to get back to our car but I tell you it is very easy to get turned around. We laughed about it after it was over.

The first time I remember going to a drive in was when I was a little girl and I was with my mom and dad when they were still together. It was What's New Pussycat? I don't remember the movie from then but I remembered the music and as I got older I saw the movie because I had remembered the music and that was the movie to go with the music. Strange how things like that happen. Maybe I ought to write a book called The Life and Times of C J An Ordinary Person. I wonder if anyone would buy it. After all I am not famous and I don't do crazy stuff to get my name in the limelight. Oh well...

I am going to say sayonara for now
Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Love That Elusive Emotion

When I was a young girl and read those romance books it woke in me a desire to be loved like that. To find that one special person to love you so deeply and passionately and that you could love in the same way. I know those are just books but couldn't such a love be possible? I have never found such a love as that.
I always wanted to know how do you know if you are really in love with someone. When I met my present husband I thought to myself that I love this man. He made me laugh and I just wanted to be with him all the time. I don't know if I really loved him or I just told myself I did.
It is like there is a part of my heart that hasn't been woke up yet. It is hard to describe. I care about my husband and if I did love him it has died.

My problem is this I had two sons from a previous marriage and my husband had two children from previous marriages. We have two daughters together.
I told him from the beginning that I wanted him to treat my sons just like he treated his children. In the course of time I realized he isn't going to treat my sons right. He would want to discipline them but without giving the love that counterbalances it.
I left him a year ago and got my own place because of the way he talked and treated my oldest son. My sons always thought I chose him over them but I also had two daughters to think about to.

My husband does not ever have anything good to say about my son it is always negative. It is called verbal abuse. Anyway I told him back then if he was going to make me choose between my son and him. He was going to lose.
The result was he apologized to my sons and told me he would try to do better and I talked to my sons and so I moved back with him. My sons were not living with us so things were good for awhile. My older son and his wife separated and he needed a place to stay and so he came to stay with us and it started all over again. If my son hadn't come back I probably wouldn't have known that he hadn't changed.

I can't live with someone who constantly treats my son that way. My younger son hasn't lived with us since he was ten and that is something else I can't forgive. He wanted to live with friends of mine that had a son my son's age and so I let him. He wasn't far but he was away from my husband. He is now eighteen and has a great job and making me a grandmother again. My older son is now taking classes to learn welding and he will have a job when he gets done with it.

If I ever did love my husband he has killed it. I think he senses something because he keeps trying to soften me up like buying flowers and taking me out to eat. My son and his girlfriend has rented a three bedroom house and they are going to move into it soon and when they do I am going with them. I am going to stay with them until I can get a place of my own.

Sometimes I feel like I am never going to find a love that I dream about. Maybe I am being unrealistic in wanting a love like that. Maybe love like that doesn't actually exist. I can't help but hope that there is. I know one thing though I would rather be alone than be with someone that gripes all the time and is negative about everything. I am a positive type of person who believes in the good of people until it is proven different.

I want someone who loves me for who I am and not try to make me be in his opinion what a woman should be like. This is all depressing but in a way it is kind of exhilerating in knowing I am going to be free. So on this note I am going say sayonara for now.
Let me know what you think if such a love like that is possible.

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Playing On Memorial Day


Yep that's me at the creek on Memorial Day and having a blast. I went riding on that tube in the first picture but that one has my son and his girl friend on it. My husband that is sitting on the bench went with me and we laughed the whole time we were on it. I went boat riding also and I love it.
Ladyhawkcj

Friday, May 23, 2008

Anonymous Commenters

I received a comment anonymously which I thought was offensive so I rejected it. It looked like a 2 page comment and was copied and pasted. It started off about the children that were taken away from the compound and it got worse saying that they were in a god fearing place and placed in the environment where they learned about xbox and such. To top it off you were a sinner if you did such things.
Well let me say something God gave man the abilities to develop these technologies so if it was evil then man would not have discovered and developed new things. We would still be back in the dark ages.
And if you want to send comments like that have the guts to put your name on it. If you are so proud of what you beleive in then proclaim your name to it.
In my bible it says obey the law of the land and in this land it is a crime to have more than one wife. If a man can have more than one wife then the wife should be able to have more than one husband. But good lord who would want more than one. I have enough dealing with the one I got much less two.
I am sorry I am ranting but it aggravated me and I just had to say something about it. I will reject comments like that so don't even bother sending it.

Now I got that off my chest, How has your day been? I have to go to work tonight which is a bummer.
I want to say thanks to all the ones who have left comments, drop their cards and advertised with me. You know who you are so thank you and I appreciate it very much.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Childhood Memories

My favorite childhood memories are going to my granny's. My Granny had twelve children and my mom was the youngest of the bunch. Anyway someone was always at granny's so we cousins got to play and have fun. She had chickens, one milk cow that I never could learn how to milk. She had this China berry tree next to her chicken coop and we learned if climbed up on top of the chicken coop we could get a limb from the tree and swing down to the ground. The limb was flexible so it didn't break. If you have never swung down from a china berry tree you just don't know what you missed.





My grandpa had honey bees that he could put his hands in and get that honey and not get stung so we had a lot of biscuits and honey. I have never found honey that tasted so good since.


My granny was a good person she never raised her voice at us and she loved us and we knew that. She always considered swimming as mixed bathing. Although she had her beliefs she never held it against us if we went. Swimming at a river and jumping off a rope that was tied to tree was fun also.


I remember during the summer we would get to stay up at night and you can see the lightening bugs and hear the crickets playing their music and it was just a peaceful time.


My granny broke her hip and it had healed but she was afraid to let the walker go because she was afraid she might fall again and break her hip again.


One day though something had happened and in her concern for me and my mama she forgot her walker and started walking without it and I mentioned that she didn't have her walker and she looked and realized she didn't have it and said I guess I don't. From that time on she never used the walker again.


I know that I am talking alot about my granny but my favorite times growing up was with her. She was my favorite grandparent.

I remember a time when I was about sixteen several of us would get together and ride around drinking Strawberry Ripple which was the thing then. I know I got a little tipsy but I just knew that it didn't show. I went to my granny's and went and laid down. To this day I couldn't tell you if she knew or not but she never said a word about it.

Oh let me tell you what kids used to do when I was a teenager. We used to ride up and down the boulevard which happens to pass right in front of the police station. Some friends and I was riding down the boulevard when we happened to notice that our tire had come off and was passing us by on the road.

I am dedicating this post to my granny who loved and was loved in return. She is in heaven now and I have no doubts that is where she is. I know that I have rambled on but I wrote it down as I thought about it.

There are too many stories that I can't tell it all at this time. Do you have some favorite childhood memories? If so I would love to hear about it and on this note I am going to say night night.

Ladyhawkcj

Monday, May 12, 2008

My Greatest Fear

Last Friday I got the scare of my life. I had sent both girls to school as usual but I had woken up with a tremendous headache and I was a little stuffy so I took some Benadryl allergy medicine but it didn't help. I decided to check my blood pressure as I have high blood pressure.
Anyway it was high and so I took some blood pressure medicine and went to lay down. I had fallen asleep and I vaguely heard the phone ring but I didn't get to it in time so I got it and had it in my hand in case it rang again but I really went to sleep and didn't hear a thing.

Next thing I know my husbands phone rang and it was my daughter in law that works at the school where the girls go. She told me that she was on her way home with Shannon that she had passed out at school.
I tried to get an appointment with a Dr but the one she usually sees was no longer there. I called other Drs but as a new patient she couldn't get in until Monday - today. She did not show any signs of weakness or I would have taken her to the emergency room.

Anyway I come out of the Drs office today with referals for an endocrinologist and a cardiologist. She has to get her thyroid levels checked along with Diabetes and I am going to check her white blood count.

Shannon had two holes in her heart when she was born but they had closed on their own and she hasn't seen one in years. She is pale looking and I am wor
ried about her. When she was born they thought she had leukemia but it wasn't. She had something they called it
Transient Myloproliferative Disorder in which she had an enormous amount of immature white blood cells. They told us that it might can possibly turn into leukemia as she got older. We just have to keep monitoring it.

My greatest fear is if she does get leukemia I don't know how I am going to deal with it. She is so special and everyone loves her. I am hoping and praying that she does not have diabetes or any kind of heart problems. Down Syndrome children have a high risk for heart problems.

I am now waiting on them to call me with the appoinments. It is not a good thing when you see your child not feeling good and not being able to help.

On another note Did you see the last Bachelor show? He Picked Shayne which I was hoping that he would. I am using different colors in my text to see which I can see better. I am sleepy so I am going to for now. Talk to you later
Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Mission To Trade

I had someone leave me a message and asked me if could make a post about his site as it is a new blog. I went to check it out and I have to admit I have never seen this concept before. It is Mission To Trade. He trades items and it started with a bottle of diet coke that was traded for golf balls. Go visit Stuart and get the scoop on why he started this and get his Mission Details. It is a pretty unique site in the fact that there is not another site like this one.
It is the first time that anyone has asked me to write about their site and I want to thank you Stuart for giving me this opportunity. You know in days gone by people used the barter system to get what they wanted. It can be a trade with items or services. You remember Little House On The Prairie when the Dr would get various goods for services rendered. It was the barter system. The layout is clean without clutter and it loads fast and the Entrecard widget is placed where you do not have to scroll down to find.

Go check it out and also if you make a post about his site you will get a link to your site .
I wonder does this qualify as a review of a site? Because if it is all I can say is hot dog I finally done one. If not then it is a good start.

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

The Bachelor London Calling



How many of you watch The Bachelor? I used to watch it when it first started a long time ago but I got away from it. Then I saw the previews of this show and I started to watch it again. I have seen all the episodes and it is one of my favorite shows with this bachelor.

There is one more episode next Monday when he will ask one of the two women that are left Shayne and Chelsea to marry him. I personally hopes he picks Shayne and I think he will.


Who do you think he will pick and who do you want him to pick. I just think he is cute and I love his English accent. This is a short post but I just wanted your thoughts.

Ladyhawkcj

Monday, May 5, 2008

Age - It's All Relative


Age - What does it mean to you? To me it is just a number. Who says because you reach a certain age you should be feeling this way or that way. I can very well remember when I was thirteen and wishing that I looked older because everyone thought I was younger than I was. It comes in handy now because I am fifty and I don't look like it. yippee.

I still feel the same now as I did then. I still like to drive fast, I still like to go out and dance, I still like to drink but I don't do as much of it or as often as I did then. I still like to watch the same kind of movies, I still like to read the same kind of books.


I have seen people that are young act old- and I have seen older people act young.

It is all in your frame of mind. Granted there are certain things your body won't let you do anymore. Several years ago my daughter and nieces were out in the front yard at my brothers house for a get together. Anyway they were doing flips and I tried it and I realized then that I couldn't do flips anymore. I have also broken a leg several years ago so that kind of limits me also physically.

I remember when I was a young girl that I thought forty was old but I realize now that forty is not old at all.

If think old you will act old but if you keep the joy of life alive you will not be old.
I enjoy being fifty years young
Ladyhawkcj

Thursday, May 1, 2008

My Grandson Zachary

I just wanted to give an update about my grandson. I have talked to my daughter in law and I was also told that I can come and see him whenever I want to. I am going to post some pictures on myspace of him as I can't ever get a photo to upload. It felt good to be able to talk to him on the phone. He is only 16 months and I couldn't understand what he was saying but it sure was nice just to hear his voice.
I am going to make this short as Lost is on and it looks to be a good one. My favorite show is Grey's Anatomy though. Talk to you later
Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

When She Cries I Go Running

I have a daughter that has Down Syndrome as some people are aware of. This morning I got ready for school and put her on the bus as usual and everything was all right. I decided that since the girls was at school and my hubby at work I would lay down and get me a little nap . I didn't get to bed till after midnight and then turn around and get my hubby up at 4 am. I was still sleepy. Just as soon as I got laid down my phone rang and it was the school calling to tell me that my daughter was crying.
You have to know she doesn't cry unless she is hurting or sick. I hurriedly got dressed and went to the school to get her. I could see where she had been crying. Her vocabulary has increased but it is still hard for her to tell us what is wrong. They said she put her hand on her head. I touched her head and asked her if her head hurt and she said yes.
I gave her one of those junior strength tylenol chewable and at first she didn't want to chew but she decided to go ahead and chew it and get it down. Then she tells me its good as it is grape flavor.
Right now she seems to be ok and is watching tv.
When my baby cries I go running to check on her, I have to make sure everything is all right.
We as mothers do that with all our children but when one is handicapped you tend to be more protective. They depend on us to keep them safe and away from harm.
Well I have to say goodbye to my nap.
Ladyhawkcj

Monday, April 21, 2008

The Choices We Make and Living With Them

I was on my way to work Friday evening when I had this idea of this post . I was thinking about my life and the choices I made with it. Every choice we make has a consequence and we have to live with whatever the outcome is. I am going to share one of my choices that I made and what my consequences are.
Twenty six years ago I met a man and we got married and had two sons. Things were good for a long time and I didn't have any reasons to think any wrong was going to happen.
It started when there was this little girl that came to stay with us and she accused him of molesting her. Of course being the good wife I didn't believe her and knowing the girl had a habit of lying didn't make it easier to believe her.
Fast Forward to several years later:
My mother and my niece came to live with us. I started to notice things weren't the same between us. I also started to notice some things about my niece, the way he would treat her and her reactions to him. She did not want to be around him or be left alone with him. I was a molested child and I started to recognize the signs. I tried to catch him in the act because he was great in trying to make you feel you were in the wrong for thinking these things.
My niece and my mother went to visit my brother where she finally told what was going on.

I believed her but here is the choice I made. I stayed with him for one simple reason I had two sons I had to able to provide for. I started school to become a nurse because I had plans to leave but I wanted to make sure that I could take care of them.
I finished school and passed my state board of nursing test. I got a job and we were living in a house that we rented from the Chief of Police in the town where we lived at.
I went to him and told him what had happened and that I was going to be leaving and he told me whenever I got ready to let him know and he would have some officers go with me.
I was afraid to do it alone because he had already hit me before and he had a bad temper.

So I worked until I got me some money and I worked nights so I was ready to go. I had called my brother and he came up and parked outside the front of my house. I had gotten in touch with Chief and told him I was ready. Two officers came in the house with me and I got my boys up and took them out to my brothers car and he watched them while I was inside getting my money and a few things.

He was asleep and didn't wake up for which I was glad. Maybe I was a sneaky person but I was not very brave when it come to facing him.
Here is my consequence:
My older son loved his father very much, he was a daddy's boy. He got very angry with me.
My niece told him what his daddy did to her and while he loves his cousin he didn't believe her. He is now twenty three years old and he believes now. But not until another episode came up and that is another story. My son was ten when I left his daddy and it took ten years for him to realize the truth of things.
I never said anything about his daddy to him because regardless of how he was and how I felt about him he was still their daddy. The funny thing was that he was a good dad. Just sick!

When he come to me and asked me what happened then I told him. He said his daddy told him a different story. He was a confused little boy and tore my heart up that he had to go through all that. My younger son wasn't quite five yet and as long as he had me he was ok.

My family at the couldn't understand at the time why I didn't leave right away but I had a plan and I did what I had to do for my boys.There was plenty of times when my stomach would just feel sick and I didn't know if I could stomach him to be able to do what I had to do.
When I called my mother to tell her I was leaving for them to start doing what they had to do.
He was arrested and put in jail.
There are plenty of stories about all of that but I think this is enough for now.

Was I wrong in doing things the way I did? Does that make me a bad person?
I know what I think but tell me what you think.
Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Amateur Photography

I call this " When Light Meets Dark " I thought the color in the sky was pretty





This one I call "My Frosty Flower "" I took this one when we had our last frost before spring

Ladyhawkcj

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Born In he Wrong Century -- I Think?

I sometimes think I was born in the wrong century. I love history and my favorite time is the Pre Civil War South. You know that song Them Creole Ladies. I love that song it reminds of a time when women dressed like ladies with those pretty gowns. I know that it wasn't all good it had its down side too. But it seems like a graceful time in history.

But the drawbacks of that time period is that they didn't have modern conveniences like the air conditioner and internet.

If you never knew they existed it would be bearable. You know those women back in those days had to be burning up in all those layers of clothing. A man had to really want a woman to go through all that. lol

Do you have a favorite time in history that you like?

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Blogging - Why Do You Do It ?

Blogging is a wonderful thing and I was wondering what motivates one to do it. I started blogging as a way to make money but that's not happening. I blog now for the opportunity to meet people online. I read about what is going on in their lives and realize it is not much different than what is going on in mine.

Do you blog to make money?

Do you blog to meet people?

Blogging makes the world seem smaller. I mean that you have contact with people from Egypt, Malaysia, India, China, Thailand and that is just a few. I will never get to travel to those countries ( unless I get lucky and win the lottery ). You can also come in contact with people from your own neck of the woods that you wouldn't have known they existed if it wasn't for blogging.

Do you have a blog in extension of a professional Website?

Don't get me wrong I still would like to make money but it doesn't consume me that I can't enjoy the view on my way to being successful.

I am not a pushy in your face salesperson. I hate it when I go to a store and I want to look around and this salesperson comes and tries to pressure you into buying something. For some odd reason it has the opposite reaction from me. I will not buy it then.

On the other end of the spectrum when you want to have a salesperson around to ask a question about something then you can't find one.

Where is the happy medium?

So come one come all and tell me what motivates you to blog.

I have all found all types of blogs through entrecard that I really enjoy. I hope that I can give back what I receive through blogging.

Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Them Crazy Old Days

Last night at work we were sitting around the nurses station and talking about the crazy stuff we did when we were younger.

There was this one time when I went to stay at a cousins place in Louisiana for the night.
She and I decided that we were going to go out to a bar. She was pregnant so she didn't do any drinking but I made it up for her.

You ever heard of Air Bands? It is something like Karaoke.
Now you have to know me for you to realize the significance of this. I am a quiet and by no means an extrovert.

This particular evening I had enough to drink to release my inhibitions and I got up on the stage and did my thing with the Air Band.

When I got through I started to look for my cousin and guess what? She was nowhere to be found!

I didn't know where she was, if she went home or not. I got a ride to take me to her place and wouldn't you know it she was at home and let me tell you I was not a very happy camper.

I was sixteen and wild:
I drank and smoked pot which I liked a lot

Now I drink occasionally and I don't smoke pot anymore. I haven't done that in a bunch of years.

My brother tells me that I got him started on pot but I sure don't remember it. Maybe my brains cells got fried.lol

He still does it though and even had a pot plant at one time and I am not talking about the ones you get at WalMart.

I'd be interested to hear about some of your wild and crazy days:

Ladyhawkcj

Friday, April 11, 2008

Having A BLAH Day



Some days I just feel Blah. Just don't have the energy to do anything.
I took this picture over at my dad's place and it really lets me know that spring is really here.

When I look at the flowers and new growth on trees, it makes me feel better. When the sun is shining but there is a breeze blowing and it is not hot yet it is like being reborn.

What makes you feel better when you have a Blah Day?

Ladyhawkcj

Thursday, April 10, 2008

REFLECTIONS, THOUGHTS AND IDEAS



























I am sitting here this morning and trying to put my thoughts in order to write this mornings post. I have been reflecting on how God intended things to be. Men working and women staying at home taking care of the home and raising children to be good decent God fearing people. I have been thinking about when I used to go church when I was young and how I just remember the preacher yelling and hollering and trying to make people afraid of God.

That is not how it should be. GOD IS LOVE! WHY SHOULD YOU BE AFRAID?

I am not afraid of God I have a very healthy Respect for him. Now if I do something wrong I will be chastized and I don't like the way it makes me feel so I try not to do wrong but alas I am not perfect.

When as children were you afraid of your parents? I hope not but if you did something wrong you knew what the consequences were. Those consequences was what we are afraid of.
I mean who wanted their tail spanked?

I started to write something else but these words just seemed to come down instead.
I am not a fanatic and go around preaching at people. That is a turn off for me.

But if can let people know about God and let them make their own decisions about being saved then that is all I can do. After all God gave people free will to decide on their own what they want to do.

I know some people don't believe in God but I believe in insurance. You take out insurance for your cars and homes. Why not for your soul?

I know that this is not what people are xpecting to read but it is something that just had to be said.

Religion-- Just a different way of getting to the same destination.
Although I don't believe in intermediaries because that is who Jesus is our go between.

Like I said said I have been reflecting on things this morning.
The world has changed along with our economy that it takes two working just to make ends meet and I hate it.

I would much rather stay at home with my children that is why I have taken with blogging. To meet new people and possibly find a way to be able to make money online and it is a slow process.

P.S.
I don't believe in doom and gloom christians
God is Light, Joy, Laughter, and He gave us a sense of humor too

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

HAVE YOU EVER HAD THIS HAPPEN

When I was a young girl there was this boy that I thought was cute. He was a relative of my stepmothers and I liked him. I didn't get to see him that often as I went to live with my mother some.

I got older and decided that I was going to get me a kiss. mmmm. Anyhow I got close to kiss him and I couldn't do it. There was just something inside me that just would not let me kiss him. I'm going drats, whats wrong here?

Well years have passed and I was talking to my brother about it one day and he told me that the guy that I liked tried to make a pass at him. He said he let him know right quick that he was straight.

I'm thinking all this time that the boy was coming to see me when it was my brother all along.

When it became known with everyone what his preferences were. Lets just say they got a good laugh on me. I kind of pick on my brother about it and we get a good laugh from it.

All I can say is WHO KNEW?

Have a Good Day
Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, April 5, 2008

FIFTY IS THE NEW TWENTY



I was modeling an outfit for my husband and I was excited because I had gone from size 18 to a size 16. I was feeling pretty good about myself and I told him that fifty is the new twenty one and my daughter says twenty.

I said that works for me so

Fifty Is The New Twenty

This is the way I look -- In My Dreams

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

I'VE BEEN HAD -- BY AN 11 YEAR OLD


As everyone knows that yesterday was April Fool's Day. Well let me tell you I've been had. The love of my heart and beautiful daughter got me and her dad.

She had gotten her finger smashed in the door by her sister and it messed her fingernail up. You know how they get when you smash them.

Her dad and I was talking about it being April Fool's Day when she came and told us that she had lost her fingernail at school that day. I told her to come and let me see I wanted to check it out and you know what she said ,you guessed it.

"April Fool's "-- We started to laugh because we were just talking about it and she got us. It says a lot when your own child can get you like that.

Well I know she has a creative mind.

Did anyone else get April Fooled?

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

I REMEMBER WHEN- APRIL FOOL'S



I remember when I was in the sixth grade on the first day of school our teacher told us that he would never give us pop quizzes.

As school went on we had forgotten that and told us one day that we were going to have a pop quiz. We got our paper and pencil ready to start and we were panicking because we had no clue what we were going to have the quiz on.

Anyway he lifted the shade that they show slides on and on the blackboard wrote in big letters APRIL FOOL'S DAY.

He had gotten us all and he said now I told you at the beginning of the year that I would never give pop quizze.

We were so relieved and started laughing because we had all forgotten that it was April Fool's Day

Have A Good One

Ladyhawkcj

Monday, March 31, 2008

I'M DISCOMBOBULATED-- IS THAT A WORD

I don't think anyone is aware that I work as a nurse. I work 12 hours on friday nights and 12 hours sunday day shift. When I work friday night and come home saturday morning the drive home -- which takes an hour 1 way --I get so sleepy driving home.

Anyway if I sleep when I get home I can't sleep that night and then turn around and get up 5 am to go work sunday.

I feel like discombobulated. Something has to change but lord I don't know what yet.
I have 2 girls aged 9 and 11. I know that all you blog catalog readers know that I have a down syndrome daughter and so someone has to around to make sure she gets on and off the bus.

Which we missed this morning so I wound up having to take her to school.

I don't want to do anything where I would have to get them up at 5 am to take them to a sitter. It is so frustrating at times when all you want to do is stay at home and take of your family but with the economy and bills it takes both our incomes to make it.

Off the topic -- I finally have 1 whole reader to my marketing site hooray
It is not a lot but it is start. I changed my template and have start all over with it. I wish there was some way to save widgets but alas. If I am rambling forgive me as I am sleep deprived.

Well gotta go drop some cards

Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, March 29, 2008

WANT TO READ SOMETHING FUNNY

THE OTHER DAY I WAS DOING SOME DROPPING AND CAME ACROSS ONE SITE CALLED BUFFY'S BLOG.

SHE HAD A STORY ON IT THAT I LAUGHED SO HARD I HAD TEARS RUNNING DOWN. I LOVE COMING ACROSS THINGS LIKE THAT JUST MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER.

I HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU TO THE ONES THAT HAVE BEEN DROPPING ON ME. I WOULD NEVER HAVE FOUND THESE SITES IF IT HASN'T BEEN FOR ENTRECARD.

I ALSO WANT TO THANK THE ONES THAT HAVE LEFT COMMENTS AND I DO APPRECIATE IT

GO CHECK THAT STORY OUT IT IS HILARIOUS

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

LETTERS TO MY GRANDSON ZACHARY ALEXANDER

This is for grandparents who for one reason or another don't get to see their grandchildren. I have a grandson that I have not seen since he was 6 months old. He is now 15 months old.

I know to a lot of people that may not seem like a long time but for me it feels like forever. When you love your grandchild so much and don't get to see them it tears your heart out.

Anyhow I was talking to a work colleague about this and she was telling me that she also has a grandchild that she does not get to see. She preceded to tell me that she writes letters to her grandchild telling him all kinds of things and she has a box that she puts all his birthday and christmas gifts in so that one day when he comes looking for them she can give it to him.

I liked the idea so I started to write letters for my grandson. I want him to know that we love him, his father loves him and that we always think about him.

I wanted to share this because I know that there are a lot of grandparents that do not get to see their grandchildren. This gives something constructive to do because one day that grandchild is going to want to know about his or her grandparents and this lets them know that are loved and it wasn't your idea not to see them.

In my case my son does not get to see his son because his wife left and took his son with her and will not tell anyone where she is at. They have not divorced yet and so that makes it hard legally to do anything about it yet.

Every now and then she calls wanting money for Zachary but she won't tell him where she is at. He tells her that when he know where Zachary is at and gets to see him then he will give her money. I mean you can't give somebody money if you don't know where to take it to.

These letters are also for Zachary to know that his father loves him very much also.

I hope everyone with grandchildren gets to be reunited with them soon.
They are ours just as much as they are their parents.

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

HOLY MOLY I JUST WET MYSELF

I was over at BLOGGING MoRe" Blog and read her post which I thought was funny but it reminded me of what happened to me when I was a young girl. I was about 10 years old and my sister and I had to sleep in the same bed. One night as I was sleeping I dreamed that I had to go pee and I went to the bathroom to get that wonderful relief when I woke up and realized what I had done.

I went and got cleaned up and changed clothes and went back to bed and all this time my sister was still asleep and I wasn't about to wake her up.

Needless to say the next morning my stepmother came in and found that the bed was wet but I had dry clothes on so my sister got blamed for it. Call me chicken but I wasn't about to say that it wasn't her.

To this day I have never told her any different you know water under the bridge and all that stuff.

I have had several dreams that I have gone to the bathroom but I don't get any relief so I eventually wake up and go.

I wonder if that is what happens to children that wet the bed. Do they dream that they are in the bathroom? Do they even feel they have to go until it is to late?

Things to ponder about:


Ladyhawkcj

Monday, March 24, 2008

HURRICANE KATRINA -- THANK YOU

I have noticed a lot of ads for Donating for Gulf Hurricane Victims and I appreciate it alot. I just want say a thank you for all the people and organizations that came to the Gulf Coast to help after Hurricane Katrina. I live on the Gulf Coast and was here during the Hurricane. Even after all this time we are still having problems with housing shortages. The cost of rentals have skyrocketed and people just can not afford to pay over 1000.00 a month to rent a place that is decent to live in. I was blessed that I did not sustain a lot of damage from the hurricane.

I was watching the news last night and they were saying that there was alot of people having what they call Survivor Depression. People that did not sustain a lot damage themselves but was depressed over the fact that so many people lost everything and they did not. I do not have that as I am an optimistic type of person.

I am a native of the Gulf Coast and I have gone through hurricanes before but not one as strong as what Katrina was. Will I stay here if another hurricane comes through? Probably but who knows. To me the worst thing was after the storm. The lack of power -- no lights or air and it was hot too, or not being able to get a hot bath. Not being able to cook which I didn't mind that but those MRe's were terrible ( my mother liked them ). We were without power for a week. Gas and being able to get any was a nightmare. We had power trucks from different states come and help to get power back on. There are still people coming and helping to rebuild and I applaud them. We are coming back better and stronger than ever. The feeling of togetherness as people work together helping each other is just amazing.

I just want to say thank you, thank you, thank you for all the help and prayers that was given us.

This Woman's Blog

Friday, March 21, 2008

HAPPY EASTER




Happy Easter everyone. I have the misfortune to have to work 12 hours Easter. What a bummer I would much rather spend it with my family. Anyone else have to work Easter?

Thursday, March 20, 2008

SPRING IS HERE -- YIPPIE



As You can tell I love spring. Everything is being reborn. My daughters and I went for a drive today just enjoying the day. Have a Happy Spring Day

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

GET FIRED FOR DOING GOOD DEED

I was sitting and watching the news and heard that in California this librarian was fired for calling the police on a man in the library looking at photos of naked boys. I don't know what is going on when you do something right and get penalized for it. The librarian noticed the man looking at the photos and went to her supervisor and she was told to just give the man a warning but instead she called the police. For that she was fired from her job although they claim it was for other reasons. I personally would rather someone like that locked away from children. Did anyone else see that on the news?



Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

HIS, MINE AND OURS

Have you ever seen that movie His, Mine and Ours with Lucille Ball and Henry Fonda? That is what I think of when I think of our family. My husband has a daughter and son from previous marriages, I have 2 sons from a previous marriage and together we have 2 daughters. What is so great about it is that all the children do not consider themselves step, half or whole brothers and sisters.They just think of themselves as just brothers and sisters. I think it is great that they have bonded together and it was done all on their own. Their ages range from 31 to 9 with a daughter being the oldest and a daughter being the youngest.The problem is not with the children it is with the relationship between my sons and my husband but that is another story..
The same applies to grandchildren collectively we have 6 grandchildren with one on the way and it is going to be a boy. I'm so excited I can't wait but alas I have to. I come from a large family and it is crazy when we all get together but it makes for a fantastic time together. That is what it is like when all our children and grandchildren are together it is fantastic. So on that note I am going to go asI have to go check to see what the youngest daughter is doing. Have a Good Day.

Monday, March 17, 2008

IRISH SODA BREAD


Corned beef and cabbage isn't the only traditional holiday favorite on St. Patrick's Day.
While St. Patrick himself never had the pleasure of tasting such a sweet delight (soda bread didn't exist in Ireland until the 1840s when bicarbonate soda was introduced) it's now often served with meals.

Many argue that "real" soda bread consists of only flour, buttermilk or sour milk, salt and baking soda. Once you add raisins, it becomes "The Spotted Dog." Likewise, the caraway seeds, whiskey and furit turn the bread into "cake", and are found in America, not Ireland. Still, here are a few recipes, whichever way you prefer!

Sweet Irish Soda Bread
Courtesy of the Food Network
Ingredients:
2 cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 tablespoon sugar
2 tablespoons cold unsalted butter
2 tablespoons cold vegetable shortening
1 egg, beaten
1 cup buttermilk
1 cup currants
2 tablespoons toasted caraway seeds
1 tablespoon melted butter
1 tablespoon sanding sugar

Instructions:
First, preheat the oven to 375 degrees. Mix the flour, baking soda, baking powder and salt in a large bowl and mix it well. Cut the butter and shortening into small pieces. Add the flour. Now, using your fingers, work the butter and shortening into the flour mixture until it looks like crumbs. Add the buttermilk, currants and caraway seeds and mix them into the flour mixture as well. Turn the dough out on a floured surface and knead until the dough forms a ball. Grease a loaf pan and place the dough in the pan, then making sure to score the top of the loaf with a knife. Brush the top of the loaf with melted butter (yum!). Sprinkle some sanding sugar and place the loaf in the oven. Bake for 40-45 minutes or until you see it turn a golden brown

Thursday, March 13, 2008

ARE YOU READY FOR EASTER

In fact I went to Wal-Mart just a little while ago and bought candy and dye you the usual Easter stuff. But the other day when I was at the Dr's office with my little girl. She broke her foot and it was time for a check up. As we were standing at the nurses counter someone asked me if I was ready for Easter. I told her I hadn't even thought about it. She went on to tell me that the Indians said that even the pine trees knew it was Easter because they start forming crosses at the top. She said that some was even forming now. I told my husband about and got him to come with me to look at our pine trees. I didn't see any crosses forming but it might be to early. Who knows? Is it fact or fiction? If you see any crosses formed at the top of pine trees let me know. Meanwhile I will keep looking also.

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Heads or Tails

This weeks Heads or Tails theme is Heads, Green.

Heads means interpret the idea how you wish. Since this week is theme, I am choosing a poem
Green is the color of spring when grass is a growing
Next thing you know it time start a mowing
Green is also the color of flower leaves
So just be careful you don't start to sneeze
If you think this funny I will go HoHoHo
If not it is for me to GoGoGo

Visit the Heads or Tails meme homepage to learn how it works… then visit Skittles Place because she IS the founder.



Saturday, March 8, 2008

WHERE'S MY SISTER

Where is my sister? That is the question. Once upon a time back in history I was a little girl my parents were having problems with their marriage. My mom and dad got married when she was 15 and he was 20. She is the youngest of 12 children and she met my daddy through one my uncles. Needless to say she went straight from parents to husband with no chance to grow and have a little fun. I personally think that when she got away from my grandfather she went a little freedom happy. Anyway they were both at fault for things not working and so they separated. My mom met someone else that she was crazy about and you guessed it she wound up pregnant. She then found out that the man was married. What a bummer. There are three of us counting my brother and sister. My dad said that they could try and work it out but she had to give the baby up for adoption. My mom said she already knew and loved us and so she gave the baby uo for adoption. I have always known that my mom had given up a baby years ago. She did know that she had a little girl but she didn't know where she was at. We have always wondered about her through the years. What happens next? Come back and find out

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Night Terrors

I was driving back from taking my girls to school when I heard on the radio about this place that was talking about sleep apnea. The signs and symptoms of it and about sleep walking. It mentioned night terrors and remembered that my older daughter used to have night terrors when she was small. She would start screaming some time during the night and I would have to go in her room to her and hold her face looking at me and saying M can you hear me? Look at me and I kept doing it until she focused on me and I could see that she was awake. But it was an experience that is not sometimes easy to take. To hear her screaming and I didn't know what triggers it. I still don't. She has outgrown it thank God but I got to thinking about it and I thought that maybe there are other mothers out there that has gone through the same experience and maybe have different ways that they dealt with it. If we talked about what we did then maybe someone that is going through it now might find one method that helps them. If you went through a child having night terrors post a comment about it so that we can help someone else.

Thank you
Ladyhawkcj

Monday, March 3, 2008

Native Hearts Will Survive

NATIVE HEARTS WILL SURVIVE


MANY YEARS HAVE PASSED,
SINCE WE WERE FREE,
WE REMEMBER THE TRAIL OF TEARS,
AND WOUNDED KNEE...

OUR ANCESTORS CRIED,
AND WALKED MANY DAYS,
THEY WERE MADE TO FLEE,
AND COULD NOT STAY...

SOME WENT INTO HIDING
FROM THE PERILS OF WAR,
AND LIVED OFF THE LAND,
SUCH HEARTACHE IN STORE...

A PRINCIPLE PEOPLE,
THEY WERE CALLED,
THEY HAD RESPECT AND HONOR,
AND WITH PRIDE THEY STOOD TALL...

THEY LOVED THEIR LAND,
AND CARED FOR IT WELL,
TILL THE WHITE MAN CAME
AND TURNED IT INTO A HELL...

THE SOLDIERS BROUGHT GUNS,
CANNONS AND FIRE,
THEY TRIED TO GIVE PEACE BUT TO NO AVAIL,
MANY DIED FROM THE GOVERNMENT'S HAIL...

OUR PEOPLE WANTED ONLY,
TO SHARE WHAT THEY HAD,
THEY GAVE OF THEMSELVES,
IT IS ALL SO SAD...

WOMEN AND CHILDREN,
AND THE OLD ALIKE,
WERE TAKEN AWAY
IN THE HORRIBLE FIGHT...

DRIVEN LIKE CATTLE
DOWN A LONG LONELY ROAD,
THOUSANDS OF MILES
WITH HEAVY LOADS...

THEY WALKED AND THEY SANG
OF BETTER DAYS TO COME,
THE WAGONS WERE THERE
SO THEY COULDNT RUN...

THEIR SICK AND THEIR DEAD,
SOLDIERS WANTED TO HAUL,
BUT PRIDE NEVER CAME
BEFORE THE FALL...

THEY REFUSED TO ALLOW
THE WHITE MAN TO WIN,
THEY CARRIED THEIR FAMILIES
ON THEIR BACKS, AND THEN...

WHEN THEY REACHED THE END
MANY HAD PERISHED,
THE LOVE OF OUR PEOPLE
WE WILL ALWAYS CHERISH...

HARDSHIPS AND PAIN,
SICKNESS AND DEATH,
THEY HELD THEIR HEADS HIGH
WITH EACH GASPING BREATH...

THEY WALKED EVERY MILE
WITH PAIN AND FEAR,
THEIR FEET WERE BLEEDING,
AND SO MANY TEARS...

CONDITIONS FOR OUR PEOPLE
TODAY HAVE NOT MUCH CHANGED,
WE FOUGHT FOR OUR RIGHTS,
MANY ARE STILL IN CHAINS...

THEY TRIED TO DEFEND US,
AND MAKE IT ALL RIGHT,
THE HARDER THEY TRIED,
THE HARDER THE FIGHT...

THE RESERVATIONS THEY SAY,
ARE FOR OUR OWN GOOD,
OUR RIGHTS ARE PROTECTED,
AND THINGS WILL BE AS THEY SHOULD...

BUT OUR BABIES ARE STARVING,
WE HAVE NO FOOD OR HEAT,
NO SHIRTS ON OUR BACKS,
OR SHOES ON OUR FEET...

OUR OLD ARE SICK,
AND NEED MEDICINE TO SURVIVE,
THEY PROMISED A GOOD LIFE,
WE ARE BARELY ALIVE...

BUT WE WON'T GIVE UP,
THIS IS OUR LAND YOU SEE,
WE WILL FIGHT TO THE DEATH,
TO KEEP OUR PEOPLE FREE...

TO HAVE RESPECT, HONOR AND PRIDE,
TO DANCE AND SING BY GRANDFATHER'S SIDE,
TO WALK OUR PATHS IN HOPES THAT THEY WILL SEE,
THAT WE ARE RED IN OUR HEARTS, AND ALWAYS WILL
BE!!!

THE END

BY: JOYCE MOUNTAIN LION KOZIC
SOUTHEASTERN CHEROKEE
JUNE 1999



Ladyhawkcj

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Christian Poetry

This was sent to me and I wanted to share
If you are interested in seeing more please visit his site




Hello Everyone,

Greetings in the wonderful name of Jesus. It’s so incredible that I have
the opportunity to write again. I want to thank each one of you, who
responded to the last letter and poem I sent out. It’s always nice to get
replies from the poems and letters I’m inspired to write.

I hope all have been well and I pray each day that everyone is growing
spiritually as we journey though this special life together.

I’ve been writing a lot of poetry today. I have such a passion inside to
give my life for others. I want to be just like Jesus. I want to give my
life for those who are in need. I believe my way of giving is through the
poetry I write.

I’ve learned that life hasn't been given to be my own, but it’s given by
God to be for everyone else. That’s what I live for. I live not for
myself, but for my friends, family and loved ones. Everyone is a friend and
loved one to me. I consider everyone to be my family.

I wrote several poems today. The poems are below this letter. The name of
one poem is Ose. I believe Christ my savior inspired me to write them, for
my own personal growth and to share with others. I hope you all find the
messages I’ve found in them, from Christ our Lord.

I trust you all are having a wonderful week. Always know you’re loved,
because I love you and so does God. Whenever you feel alone and in despair,
know that there’s a God who loves you more than you’ll ever know and
also know that there’s a poet who loves you too.

In
His Love, See Poems Below.

Ahrend R. Walters
Believer Poet
www.believerpoet.com


Ose
By: Ahrend R. Walters
Copyright 2008

What is life to live for mine it’s only but a worthless life
But what is life to live for those the greatest life ever chose

Do I live for my own to build my lavished fancy house
Or do I live for helping others like orphaned children without mothers

Who am I deep in heart one for me of selfish greed
Or am I giving every all to help others from the fall

What is life to live for min it’s only but a worthless life
But what’s the life to live for those the greatest life I ever chose



Astound
By: Ahrend R. Walters
Copyright 2008

My friends are dying in endless pain
They many starve and kill to gain

At here this time come with me now
Lets give them hope through Love is how

In this moment with passing by
I hear there need I hear their cry

As many feed a hungry greed
I need your help at now I plea

Come with me lets walk alone
While many care just for their own

We can change the worlds around
Alone through Love Let’s go Astound



Every Graceful Thing
By: Ahrend R. Walters
Copyright 2008

All trees and bird’s stampedes of herd
Rains and snows wind that blows
Its all our Lord the clouds that pour
For flower blooms there many moons
At far beyond the running fawn
O so near the waves we hear
Of beauty pure that’s God I’m sure
He’s Every Graceful Thing


Ladyhawkcj

Thursday, February 28, 2008

A Few Good Tips

A Few Good Tips
1. Ink Stains in Whites- Spray hair spray like aqua net on the ink and wash and it will come out.
2. Lips that split in the corners- Put some pepto bismol on a q tip and apply and it will disappear- This is from a Dr.
3.Cut on finger- Black pepper will clot the bleeding but salt will make you scream

Children Are Funny:
I was sitting in the cafeteria this morning waiting for my daughter Shannon to eat her breakfast and there were these two little girls standing by where the milk is. One asked the other one where is the chocolate milk? The other little girl told her it was toward the back and she reaches to get it and she says good " I really need this". It was like she was going to die if she didn't get her chocolate milk.

Diet Update: I am now into a size 16 from an 18. I lost from 196 lbs to 184 lbs
using Dr Stan's Weight Loss Program

Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Where Does The Time Go

I was sitting in the car waiting to pick up my girls from school. As I was sitting there I could see the kids waiting to get in the cars. I saw my daughter and it was like one of those moments when you notice how much they've grown. She was standing there with her crutches ( she broke her foot )and I am thinking it seemed like it was just yesterday that she was born. Where did my baby go? I know that most mothers feel the same but it just seems like time is passing too fast. It is important to spend time with them while you can before they grow and move. I am proud of her but just a little sad that she won't stay that little girl that needs her mama. They will always need you but just not in the same way.

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Nurses Are You Stressed Out Yet?

This is for the nurses because I am one. I know that we all get stressed out. It is a chronic condition. I am posting this so that you can post comments to give rant to whatver is causing you stress. I work at a nursing home and my thing that I don't like is having people that are trying to get in with the boss so to speak goes and tells everything that is going on. Things that they have no clue what is going on. Medication errors are a thing that stresses you out because you don't want to make one. So if you have a rant or some stress to relieve. Just do it here.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Dating- How Old Should They Be

DATING- That is the question. How old should our children be before they start dating especially our daughters? I remember when I was about 13 I asked my daddy when can I start dating and he told me I couldn't date until I 40 years old. Last night we were over at Melanie's older brothers house and her 23 year old brother said that she needed to wear looser shirts because she is starting grow into a young lady and that it is very noticeable. I told him and her 25 year old brother that they are just not used to seeing their little growing up. Her 25 year old brother Anthony said that she couldn't date until she graduated high school. Her 23 year old brother Nick said she couldn't date until she was forty. I thought it was funny to watch these grown boys be protective of their little sister. Her father hasn't said anything because she is still his little girl. The time will be here before we know it. I would like to hear your opinions.

Ladyhawkcj

Monday, February 11, 2008

Learning How To Drive

You want to read something funny. When I was a young girl and was learning how to drive my stepmother let me drive the car. We lived out in the country so we didn't have to worry about traffic. Well there was a car load of us in the car and we were just going down the street back to the house. Well I made the driveway just perfect but I got the gas and the brakes mixed up and ran right into a tree in the front yard. When we all got out of the car I had to run to go to the bathroom. When I come out there was this stream of water running down the floor. My stepmother got so upset about me hitting the tree and she just couldn't hold it. I was so worried that when my daddy came home that he was going to get unto me big time but all he said was that she shouldn't have let me drive. I never loved my daddy so much as I did then when he didn't get unto me. My daddy never had to get unto me or spank me. All he had to say was that he was disappointed in me and that was all it took. I was whipped.
Ladyhawkcj

DIY Potpourri

I was sitting in the doctors office with my daughter thumbing through a magazine and run across this. I thought this was simple as usually have most of these ingredients already:
DIY Potpourri:Dry Rose Petals
1/4 cup cloves
1 cup allspice
10 3in cinnamon sticks broke in pieces
8 small bay leaves - (got me there)
4 whole nutmeg
3 tbs star anise
2 tbs whole cardamon pods
If you want to kick it a notch you can add a few drops of perfume oil

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Valentine Lowfat Cookies

If you're looking for a low-calorie, fat-free treat this Valentine's Day, then try these light meringue cookies. For best results, separate the eggs while cold, make sure not a speck of yolk contaminates them, and leave the whites for 20 minutes or so before beating them. Make sure the whisks and bowl are entirely clean and free from grease before use.
INGREDIENTS:
3 egg whites
1/4 tsp cream of tartar
3/4 cup superfine sugar
Red food coloring
Red sprinkles
PREPARATION:
Preheat oven to 225 degrees. Line a large rimmed baking tray with parchment paper.
Beat egg whites with an electric mixer on medium speed until foamy.

Add cream of tartar and continue beating egg whites until the soft peak stage
Gradually add sugar, a tablespoon or two at a time, beating well after each addition.

Mix until all the sugar has been added and the egg whites are stiff and glossy.

Add a few drops of red food coloring and stir to make the egg whites pink.

Drop by the tablespoon onto the parchment-lined baking sheet, or, with the help of a small heart-shaped cookie cutter, make heart shape meringues -- spoon the meringue inside the cookie cutter, and push down with the spoon as you lift the cookie cutter, then repeat for each cookie.

Bake for 1 hour. Switch off oven, and leave in the oven for 2-3 hours

Makes about 24-30 cookies

Per cookie: Calories 26, Calories from Fat 0, Total Fat 0g, Cholesterol 0mg, Sodium 8mg, Carbohydrate 6.2g, Fiber 0g, Protein 0.4g

To get more lowfat Recipes go to
http://lowfatcooking.about.com

Children- Getting Lapbands

I'm writing about this because we women are mothers too. I saw on Oprah the other day about these children that were overweight getting lapbands. There are advantages to it because they do lose a lot of weight and they don't have other children picking at them for being overweight. I'm not talking about a little overweight but obese. I don't know if I would have my child do it or not. It is better as far as future heart problems or whatever could happen. If you had a child that was really overweight would you have them go through the lap band surgery?

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Hypothyroidism and Weight

Hypothyroidism and weight goes hand in hand. I just wanted to say that as a person with hypothyroidism that losing weight is a very hard thing to do. Gaining it is easy you don't have to do anything but look at food and gain weight. I have started a diet an couple of weeks ago and I have now lost about 10 lbs. I first heard about this diet from another nurse that has hypothyroidism and she said she lost 20 lbs and you can see the difference. I then started to hear about it from my co-workers at work and decided I would give it a try. It does work and I posted a link to the site on my sidebar. It also helps with high blood pressure. I used to drink pepsi all the time and nothing but. Since I started the diet I did have a headache from the caffeine withdrawal but excedrin migraine works wonders for a headache. I only had a couple of days of the headches and now I can't drink pepsi now. I tried the other day and it tasted funny so I couldn't drink it. I now drink flavored water with 0 calories. If you've tried diet after diet and has had no results then I urge you to try this diet. The thing is you don't feel hungry. My problem with other diets is I was always hungry and you had to eat these foods that I didn't like. Go to the site and check it out. This is the site www.drdiet.com Good luck in weight loss

Ladyhawkcj

Sunday, January 27, 2008

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Friday, January 25, 2008

Fibromayalgia

Fibromyalgia is a syndrome that I know a lot of people heard of from tv or such. I have a friend and a sister that has this condition. There are people that doesn't really understand what it feels like. You might have this or know someone that does. Fibromyalgia, What is it? It is a chronic condition causing pain, stiffness and tenderness of muscles, tendons, joints, restless sleep, anxiety, depression - formerly known as fibrositis.

Causes are unknown but it affects more women than men.

There are tender points- around neck, elbows, knees, hips, shoulders and sides of breastbone.

Signs and Symptoms- musculoskeletal pain, severe fatigue, anxiety, depression, sleep- usually have no problem getting to sleep but wake up during the night and can't go back to sleep.

Diagnosing- Usually a rule out procedure to make sure it is not some other condition such as hypothyroidism for example.

Treatment - Combination of education, stress reduction, exercise and medications.

You can get more detailed information at

http://www.medicinenet.com/fibromyalgia/article.htm

Observing my sister and my friend it is very painful. There are days when they can't get out of bed. It is almost like having a bad case of flu with the body aches. There are certain things they can't do because it aggravates the symptoms. Everyone does not experience the same degree of pain but it is there. If you or anyone else you know are having these symptoms then I suggest going to a doctor and start getting some treatment. On this note I will good luck.







Ladyhawkcj

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Ladies It Is Pajamas Day

Ladies have ever have days where you just wanted to stay in your pj's? Well today was that day for me. When it looks gloomy outside and you just don't want to go anywhere. Then its Pajamas Day. I have declared that as a new holiday for us women. Pajamas Day- How does that sound? You know us women have two jobs
1. That is where you have to get dressed and go to work for a salary
2. It is called family job and it never ends and you don't paid for that so I take a day off and have my pj day. Do you have a PJ day? I'd be interested to hear about what makes you have your PJ day.
Ladyhawkcj

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Exercise - Whats That?

Exercise Oh that is such a bad word to me. I hate to exercise. But they say in order to lose weight you have to do it. Has any one found something easy to do? I can't even do a sit up now that is what you call pathetic. I can touch my toes though. My problem is this. I fell and broke my leg 11 years ago. A fractured tibia plateau, actually the bone was crushed and had pins put in. The pins are out now but I can't do exercises that pertain to jumping or bouncing. I actually did my own physical therapy. So any clues as what kind of exercises that can be done without being hard on the knees would be appreciated.
Ladyhawkcj

Friday, January 18, 2008

Dodging Weight Gain with Vitamin D

Ladies I heard about vitamin D and how it can help you lose weight so I found this article from the Brigham and Womens Hospital. The link is
http://www.brighmanandwomens.org/healtheweightforwomen


You may be well aware of vitamin D's part in building better bones, but did you know it might also help in the battle of the bulge? Unfortunately, many of us are not getting enough D; in fact, are even D-deficient. Overweight individuals are especially at risk.
Excess body fat absorbs and holds onto vitamin D, making it unavailable to the body. The absence of vitamin D creates interference with the functioning of a hormone called leptin, which signals to the brain that you are full and should stop eating. In addition, overweight people tend to spend more time indoors. This also deprives them from further D as the ultraviolet rays of the sun spur the production of D.
Luckily, replenishing vitamin D in the bloodstream to normal levels restores leptin's actions. Getting enough vitamin D, namely 800 to 1,000 International Units (IU) a day can be a challenge from diet sources alone. Supplementation is often needed. Multivitamins typically provide 400 IU. Actually the best source of D is that which is derived from the sun as this form stays in the body longer with greater lasting benefits. Plus, a little goes a long way. Ten minutes of unprotected sun (as sunscreen blocks the useful UV rays) three times a week is enough. After 10 minutes, apply the sunscreen.
Yet many of us who live in the Northern half of the U.S. make little to no D from sunshine during the winter months through early spring. So along with your "multi", choose among the sampling of D containing foods:
Listed from highest to lowest in vitamin D content.
Item
Vitamin DInternational Units
Calories
Pink salmon, canned (3 oz)
530 Vit D
118 Cal
Catfish (3 oz, raw)
425 Vit D
81Cal
Sardines, canned in oil (3 oz)
230 Vit D
177 Cal
Tuna fish, light, canned (3 oz)
201 Vit D
168 Cal
Quaker OatmealNutrition for Women (1 packet)
140 Vit D
160 Cal
Fortified soymilk (8 oz)
116 Vit D
101 Cal
Yoplait Nouriche Smoothie (11 oz)
100 Vit D
260 Cal
Fortified orange juice (8 oz)
100 Vit D
110 Cal
Fortified nonfat milk (8 oz)
98 Vit D
91 Cal
Dannon Light'n Fit nonfat yogurt (6 oz)
80 Vit D
80 Cal
Cereal, dry, most brands (1 cup)
40 Vit D
100 Cal
Sources: USDA Nutrient Database, Release 18 (2005)

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

What Qualities Does A Woman Look For In A Man

What qualities does a woman look for in a man?

1. Trust- A woman wants to know that he is a one woman man. If the trust is broken and there is doubt there can be no relationship.

2. Support- A woman wants to know that a man will support her and back her up when she needs it.

3. Laughter - A woman wants a man that can make her laugh and just enjoy being alive

4. Communicator- A woman wants a man that will listen to her and really hears what she is saying

5. Romance- A romantic soul is a plus

6. Provider- It doesn't matter what a man does for a living but that he continues to grow and not get stuck in a rut

7. Family- A man has to decide if he wants one or not and be on the same page as the woman



Now these are not necessarily in order but these are the qualities that I as a woman look for in a man.

Women I would love to hear what qualities you look for in a man





Ladyhawkcj

Where's The Romance

Where has the romance gone? Did it leave when womens lib came aboard? I agree that if a woman can do the same job as a man then she should get paid the same. Aside from all that does a man think that if a woman likes to be independant that she doesn't like romance? I wonder mmmm. Well this woman likes to be romanced. I like to have doors opened for me, flowers brought for no reason except to say I like you and I think you are beautiful. To be asked out on a dinner and dance or movie date. I like the differences in masculine and feminine roles. That does not mean that I like to be dominated over. Just the complements of the differences that make a whole. For a man to listen to me and value my thoughts and opinions can be romantic. Walking hand in hand along the beach or sitting in front of a fireplace and talking to one another can be romantic. I would like to know what you think as a woman what romance means to you. Come on you women and give me your opinion and don't be bashful.

Ladyhawkcj

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Fashion Challenge

I am issueing a challenge for anyone who know of a site that has sexy, classy clothes for plus size women. Some people think that when a woman reaches a certain age or size that she no longer wants to feel sexy and feminine. Well that is not true. I went shopping to find me a dress that was sexy but classy. Guess what I couln't find one. If I did find one that I liked they didn't have it in my size. I am protesting. I do not own one single dress in my wardrobe. Isn't that a shame? I would rather not buy a dress than buy what I don't like. So if anyone knows of such a site please let me know. You know some women can't help being big for one reason or another but that doesn't mean she has to give up being a WOMAN.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Losing Weight

I am in the process of trying to lose weight. I have a condition called Hypothyroidism which makes it harder to lose weight but easy to gain it. I developed the condition after my last daughter was born. I went through the pregnancy fine but after she was born I noticed that I had gained a lot of weight fast and I wasn't doing anything different. I went to the Dr and had a blood test done and it was discovered that I had Hypothyroidism. That meant having to take medication forever what a bummer. I have now started a diet and so far I have lost 4 lbs. It is through a Dr Stan Owens. His web site is www.drdiet.com you can go there and order what you want. It is a phase diet where you add different things with each phase. I will continue to give updates.
Ladyhawkcj

Kids Say The Darndest Things

The other night my grandson came over with his parents and his mother and I was watching the movie Pearl with Ben Affleck. His mother told me that his daddy was watching tv with some sex scenes in it and Brandon saw it and was going ohhhhhhhh. She made him leave but she asked him if he knew what they were doing. He said yes they was kissing and when they were going oh,oh,oh it was because they were tired. All that kissing just made them tired. He is only 5 years old. When she told me that I almost died laughing. The innocence of children just amazes me. I hate to see that change as they grow older. Talk to you again.
Ladyhawkcj